i was thinking am i really make a correct decision?? i am wondering should i juz end up of my working life in here??? why should we had so high educated?? why people not educated just like they will being look down by others people?? this world really cruel...but how??? we still need to survive if not working how we going to survive...still wanna hands out and ask money from parents???

sometime i will just think...why last time i don't me a chinese physician doctor???why i so stupid??? didn't think it at a proper way...at least being a professional is better than now really don't have any idea what type of job i am really looking for...oh can any one out there tell me??? is this the life i really want??? i really don't understand myself what i really want...truely a bit regret for choosing the course that i had taken...but how??? times would not go backward i only can accept the reality now...

i really don't know what actually i want is the main problem..when everytime i go interview they surely will ask what actually you want?? what actually you want to do as a marketer??? adminstrative??? what you know about those post responsibility??? ya i also know...but it's really hard for me myself to think what really i want...everyday just like the same...morning wake up working after working go back home, teach tuition on monday and tuesday, then wednesday, thursday, friday, saturday and sunday night...except going out yam cha with friend what else meaningful thing that i can do???? Argh!!! really tired when i just think about it...

i want my life have something interesting....i want my life fufilled with more colours.........................................