last day of Jul

9 more minutes to 1st of Aug'08.... Jul, ended juz like that this... it's just like eh...how come? Jul finished already liaw...hahaha...

well look for the future and not look for the backward, trying to telling myself that not to think the passed, but waiting for the present... hehehe...

So, just want to say bye to Jul, and welcome Aug and also the kuching festival... meet u again liaw this year...very excited for my coming soon trip... the day is coming soo..... kekekeke...

想开了

似乎已经拨开云雾了
似乎已经想通了
似乎已经不怎么在乎了
似乎我又找回原来的我了

觉得说人应该为自己而改变
而不应该为了别人而改变
觉得说人应该为自己成长
而不是因为别人而成长
觉得说人应该为自己而快乐
而不是随着别人的快乐而快乐

我开始慢慢的找回了以前的我
我开始慢慢的提升现在的我
我开始慢慢的享受现在的一切
我开始慢慢的学会不要那么的执著
我开始慢慢的学会放手
我开始慢慢的尽量的不那么在乎无关的一切

我的太阳花找到了太阳
我找回了我的快乐了。。。
我要慢慢的找回我的路。。。

Tree, Leaft, Wind

Tree
_______________

People call me "Tree".

I had dated 5 girls when I was in Pre-U. There is one girl who I love alot but never dared to go after. She didn't have a pretty face, goodfigure or an outstanding charm. She was just a very ordinary girl. I liked her. I really liked her. I liked her innocence, her frankness, her intelligence and her fragility. Reason for not going after her was thatI felt somebody so ordinary like her was not a good match for me. I wasalso afraid that after we were together all the feelings would vanish. I was also afraid other's gossip would hurt her.

I felt that if she were my girl, she'd be mine ultimately & I didn'thave to give up everything just for her. The last reason, made heraccompanying me for 3 years. She watched me chase other girls, and I have made her heart cry for 3 years. She was a good actor, and me ademanding director. When I kissed my second girlfriend, she bumped into us. She was embarrassed but smiled & said, "Go on!" before running off.The next day, her eyes were swollen like a walnut. I did not want tok now what caused her to cry. Later that day, I returned from soccertraining to get something & watched her cry in the classroom for an hour or so. My fourth girlfriend did not like her.There was once when both of them quarreled. I know that based on hercharacter she is not the type that will start the quarrel. However, Istill sided my girlfriend. I shouted at her & ignored her feelings and walked off with my girlfriend. The next day, she was laughing & joking with me like nothing happened. I know she was hurt but she did not knowdeep down inside I was hurt too.

When I broke up with my fifth girlfriend, I asked her out. Later thatday, I told her I had something to tell her. I told her about my breakup.Coincidentally, she has something to tell me too, about her gettingtogether. I knew who the person was. His pursuit for her had been the talk of the School. I did not show her my heartache, just smiles & best wishes.Once I reached home, I could not breathe. Tears rolled & I broke down. How many times have I seen her cry for the man who did not acknowledge her presence?

During graduation, I read a SMS in my hp. It said, "Leaf's departure isbecause of Wind's pursuit. Or because Tree didn't ask her to stay"

Leaf
_______________

People call me Leaf.

During the 3 years of Pre-U, I was on very close terms with a guy asbuddy kind. However, when he had his first girlfriend, I learnt afeeling I never should have learnt - Jealousy. Sourness to the extreme limit. They were only together for 2 months. When they broke up, I hidmy happiness. But after a month, he got together with another girl.

I liked him & I know he liked me. But why won't he pursue me? Since heloves me why he didn't he make the first move? Whenever he had a new girlfriend, my heart would hurt. After some time, I began to suspect that this was one-sided love. If he didn't like me, why did he treat me so well? It's beyond what you will normally do for a friend. I know hislikes, his habits.But his feelings towards me I can never figure out. You can't expect mea girl, to ask him. Despite that, I still wanted to be by his side. Care
for him, accompany him, and love him. Hoping that one day, he will come to love me. Because of this, I waited for him. Sometimes, I wondered ifI should continue waiting. The pain, the dilemma accompanied me for 3 years.

At the end of my 3rd year, a junior pursues me. Everyday he pursues me. He's like the cool & gentle wind, trying to blow off a leaf from a tree. In the end, I realized that I wanted to give this wind a small footing in my heart. I know the wind will bring the leaf to a better land. Finally, leaf leftthe tree, but the tree only smiled & didn't ask me to stay.

Leaf's departure is because of Wind's pursuit. Or cause Tree didn't ask her to stay.

Wind
________________

Because I like a girl called leaf. Because she's so dependent on tree, so I have to be a gust wind. A wind that will blow her away. When I first met her, it was 1 month after I was transferred to this new school. I saw a petite person look ing at my seniors & me playingsoccer. During ECA time, she will always be sitting there. Be it alone or with her friends, looking at him. When he talks with girls, there's jealousy in her eyes. When he looked at her, there's a smile in her eyes. Looking at her became my habit. Just like, she likes to look at him.

One day, she didn't appear. I felt something missing. I can't explain the feeling except it's a kind of uneasiness. The senior was also not there as well. I went to their classroom, hid outside and saw my senior scolding her. Tears were in her eyes while he left. The next day, I saw her at her usual place, looking at him. I walked over and smiled to her. Took out a note & gave to her. She was surprised. She looked at me, smiled & accepts the note. The next day, she appeared & passes me a note and left.

It read, "Leaf's heart is too heavy and wind couldn't blow her away."

"It's not that leaf heart is too heavy. It because leaf never want to leave tree." I replied her note with this statement and slowly she started to talk to me & accept my presents & phone calls. I know that the person she loves is not me. But I have this perseverance that one day I will make her like me. Within 4 months, I have declared my love for her no less than 20 times. Every time, she will divert away from the topic. But I never give up. If I decide I want her to be mine, I will definitely use all means to win her over. I can't remember how many times I have declared my love to
her. Although I know, she will try to divert but I still bear a small ray of hope.

Hoping that she will agree to be my girlfriend. I didn't hear any reply from her over the phone. I asked, "What are you doing? How come you didn't want to reply?" She said, "I'm nodding my head". "Ah?" I couldn't believe my ears. "I'm nodding my head" She replied loudly. I hang up the phone, quickly changed and took a taxi and rush to her place & press her doorbell. During the moment when she opens the door, I hugged her tightly.

Leaf departure is because of Wind pursuit. Or because Tree didn't ask her to stay...

叶子的离开是因为风，还是树的不无挽留。。。。

dinner with josslyn

Finally, our date with josslyn had arrived... yeap we had our dinner last night, i think we haven't meet each other since May, if not wrong... it's been around 2months we didn't meet up...wah... why take so long didn't meet up each other? Actually is because she's busy doing her credit card sales, always went outstation to bintulu, sibu, miri...and even if she's at kuching she have to work on shift during weekends...and even sometime she need to work at night at the petrol station to promote their shell credit also... what a pity hor... what to do...this is one of their role so need to follow lol...

The funny thing is, yesterday dinner we only chat a little bit of our own topics...whole night we are listening to the the Japanese Restaurant Set Up Manager Mr. Simon bluffing... hahaha... he really a very funny man... like to jokes a lot... He shares with us a lot of his experience... Not only that, the most weird thing is how come he share with us his first love... how and where his first love break with her? hahaha... Anyway, thanks a lot for ur sharing ya... Mr. Simon...

Too bad that BK and WT can't join the dinner for yesterday night, if not... i think it will be a really wonderful dinner night for 5 of us...

人来人往,人来人散

人来人往
人来人散
人群中能够相遇，相识到相知
是件很奇妙的事情
也许有很多东西，事情是我们都不能预料
也有很多很多是我们很难顾虑那么多。。。。
复杂的心情又开始突然的回到了我的身边

是想太多了吗？
知道会是这样，
还要继续下去。。。
想。。。
还是趁早抽身。。。
免得遍体鳞伤。。。
我没有她的勇敢。。。
我很脆弱的。。。
不懂，
这样的一个决定会是怎样的结果。。。
只是觉得这样会比较好。。。
在还没烧伤前，
把火熄灭。。。
让自己成为那么勇敢的一次消防员吧！

是时候吗？

在对的时间遇上对的人。。。
你很幸运。。。
在对的时间遇上错的人。。。
你很倒霉。。。
在错的时间遇上对的人。。。
你和他有缘没份。。。

现在是对的时间吗？
他是对的人吗？
还是现在是错的时间？
但又让你遇上对的人？
这一切切都是缘啊！

缘分到了吗？
在什么时候才知道。。。
缘分他在敲你家的门。。。
缘分啊！
你真的是个很悬的东西。。。

i dun want the last flight.....

received 3 sms from air asia this noon... WAT the f*** ahem!!! sorry to be rude here... i didn't meant it... it's because they delayed our flight from the earlier to the last flight... u say will u angry or not... stupid air asia... very excited that the day is coming soon, but then... so so disappointed and our mood spoil because of the flight delay~

独立...可以吗?

突然间不想再依赖别人
很想学习独立,
不管是什么事情都好
只要是自己能做的都尽量避免麻烦到其他人...
如果先前有麻烦到诸位的话...
不好意思了...
麻烦噻...同埋唔该噻...
也不忘了,考验我的人...多谢噻...

我要独立!!!
可以吗? 应该可以的...
相信自己我可以的!
也许这只是个起步...
不管接下来会是怎样的考验等着我,
我都ok...
小小的挫则...
大大的考验...
只要我坚信坚强的走下去
也许我会从小草变成不倒翁也挺不错的...

my passed birthday....2008

it's been a long long time i wanted to get my birthday pics from bk for almost 4months...hahaha.... finally 2day i manage to get it from her...come on guys come and have a look on those pics which i wish to share with u all...



make a wish make a wish...hope this year are better than previous year...hope all my wish may come truth...



blow the candle lol....



so innocent face while cut the cake....



i been forced kissed by her... wu~wu~wu~



Mr. Dennis and me... peace for the world... *sweat* how come i seems like no mood no mood hor..



shirley and me...and she's younger than me 1 day...hahaha...



see another kiss from her again.... dont envy me ya.... :P



bee kim and me... y she didn't kiss me? she pai sei to do so... hahahaha....



this is our big bro who always take cares of us...but now no more liaw....hahaha...



this is josslyn and me lol~



u guys got see sharon's eye... almost dropped liaw lol... hahahaha....



these 2 sweet ladies... try to promote the cake... hahahaha....



stupid pose....



hahaha.... 4 sweet ladies....



here come another sweeties...



group photo with the others but then missed out 2 pretty ladies there...

Guys... thanks a lot for the cakes and present and of cause for the celebration as well.... really is from the bottom of my heart... Thank you guys... Muaks!!!

it's all begin with...

It's all begin with a normal friend, after we getting know more about each other, then there will be from a normal friend become good friend, after that it will comes across to closed friend which will share everything with each other... although we would not know what will happen in the future, will we still can be friend or not? i hope our friendship will not just ended up easily...and i just get started to know more about u, so do u rite? hehehe....

don't expect so much larh pls...

if u don't have that much of expectation, then u won't be that much disappointing as well...so don't put too much of expectation to make urself so disappointing...is very easy for us to say so but then it is very hard for us to do so...ya~ when u are so excited on something and put 100% of expectation towards ur expecting result, but then who knows when's the results come out and it is totally different compare with what u had expected, definitely u will be very disappointing towards urself, keep asking urself how come it is like this and not like what u expecting...well, unless u are the god then u can expect anything and create anything that match with ur expectation...if u are just a normal human beings, then please just follow the human being roles, it is very hard for us to predict something which is not under our control. Just like we had told our HQ people that, we can't forecast the stock for the coming 4 months, it is not under our control if we just followed the forecast order quantity and issue the PO to u and there's only 2 results it will be below or over forecasting then u guys will come over to us and question us Again, how come it is like this, how come is over/below forecasted...then what u expect us to explain to u? ya is us, who doing the forecasting report fault? Or, ya is our Salesmen whom simply forecast (as they already told and complaint so many time that they are not god, they can't expect/estimated the market for the next few months) fault? or, Ya lol...is our head whom didn't check over on our reports?

Ya, we do understand that if we didn't do the forecast thing, then we never going to know what items we are going to sell, what items that we are not going to sell. but then it might be can work for the month after and it is very difficult to forecast for the coming in few months lol...which means can i ask u that do u know will u still alive or eat how many meals per day after 3months? can u ans me? or u wan to forecast on how many meals u wanna had for that month? so pls don't too rely on the forecasting report ok...im already tired to tell u the same thing, maybe is because of ur positioning and our situation are totally different, but u still have to understand that paperwork report is totally different with the real world...pls be realistic a bit...if u wan be to given a flying colors report i can...but then u will question again how come the report are so much different compare with the forecast?pls larh i don't have so much time to laugh at ur report when every time im doing it okie? Oh ya, u asked me don't wasted my time to do something not worth, but then can i tell that this report just wasting my time and it is not really worth for me to spend so much time for just to submit this report to u... can wor?

bear & patrick with the sunglasses & hp

Ya~ i found these funny photos....it's taken during the trip at Penang, when we are waiting the ferry or waiting for the trafic light? i can't remember anymore...hahaha.... but what i had found out is this 2 photo are quite funny larh...


"hello, im bear bear, im wearing don't know who's sun glasses (although is at night time) and im now talking on the phone with my beloved..."



"Hi, im patrick...can tell me who's the one helped me to wear the sunglasses ar??? isn't im cool?"



Hi Guys, im the owner of these two dolls, if u are interested with them, you may contact reach me at 012-xxxxxxx he's 1 of the driver during our trip at penang, thanks a lot my fren....

where's my luck?

where's my luck? Recently don't know what had happened to me... so so so careless...made a lot of mistake on my paper work... my goodness i really can't believe that i had made such a stupid careless mistake!!! Hey SPC!!! wake up larh don't always blur blur just like a 失魂鱼...not only that, i found myself really bersong with the Ms. L in my office don't know why just very very bersong with her...maybe because of her attitude, her attitude really got problem larh...when me/wn asking her something regarding to work she will just like to "har... don't know lerh...." then when her good sister Ms. S said something which is not regarding to work or others people telling nonsense there then sure u will heard she said "har...si merh...." my goodness don't know whether she's really deaf when talks about work then become a normal person when talks about something else...

Just like today, i went inside my boss office to find empty CD, me and wn don't want to get the CD from her is because of when we want to have something from her is very very difficult just like when we ask something from her she sure will give us a face which shows that very difficult to get the thing to us...see only want her to get things to us already so difficult liaw don say wanna ask help from her, sure can when she needs your help then sure she will help you lol...but then if u seems like "un-useful" to her you wait long long for her to greet u...she will just ignore u as are transparent at all, which she won't see u around, but then when she want something from u then u are not transparent for that time....So, when my boss intercom her and asking her to get the CD for me, after she hang up the phone, she said SO LOUD said that BC said get the empty CD for SPC HOR, SPC request 1 empty Disc for her HOR...is FINE for me i just pretend i didn't heard it and continue to do my work...then her good sister said how come BC intercom u to ask u get the things to her, but then not herself to ask the thing from u, normally she will ask the things from u 1 lerh...then she said I DUN NOE..pls larh!!! u should know, not what u don't know...if u really don't know then i will tell u here, because of ur attitude make people sick of you!!! that's why we don't want to ask things from u, pls REMEMBER is not we scared of you, is just that we don't want give u the chance to show us again ur stupid face!!!!

So from now on, i just ignore her, make her as transparent also, won't greet her, till the day she ask me something then i will ans her loudly I DON KNOW!!!! HMPH!!! the way how you threat people, i will revenge back to u....let u see how's d feelings, and when u want something from me i also will show u that kind of face, and next time when u don't know how to write email and ask me to teach u...hehehe... sure i will tell u IM NOT FREE NOW!!!! instead of tell u i don't know...Hahahahaha...

Oh ya, i just know that actually her job description also include to answer all the phone calls, but then now she refuse to do it, maybe because she thought that she already naik pangkat, became senior liaw then can bully junior....u wait long long u won;t have the chance to bully me, is just i don;t want to quarrel with u, if u still want us to respect u please respect others people first before you are waiting for the others to respect u lol!!!!

Honestly, i want to work in a harmony office, which don't have any politics issues, my company is not a really big company, but then i don't know why still will have politics between each other...My dear buddha, pls return back my luck to me...i don't want to have any quarrel with them, i just want to work in a harmony place...