useless???

i am wondering am i useless???i feel that i am losing my way in my work keep worrying about all the report that i have to do...no1 can help me now i have to try it up by myself...gosh... i wish i am smart + clever since i was borne so that i can learn faster and do my work faster which won't make any mistake...

i scare people will judging my presentation, i scare people will compare me with the others...i try and try to put more effort on it...but i really need some time...i really hope that i m not that useless for them...

fish fish

ok... here will be another character appear in my blog... tis gal...kekekeke... is fish... i think we lost contact after my birthday March 2007 till now almost 3 months liaw...she's a very very busy person is kinna hard for us to date her out unless there's special occasion like who who who's birthday...hiak hiak hiak...

see....all my friend cute cute 1 hahahaha....

received her call just now i think is around 12pm asking me go haf lunch with her....hahahaha...sorry larh my dear friend i already resign from that company and join another new firm for almost half month liaw....kekekekeke....hope you wil call me tonight and confirm with me when u free ar.......hiak.....hiak....hiak....

miss

i miss my study life....high school college life......no need to think too much...no need to worry so much.....i miss those life...............................................................

我的世界

我的世界不是很大也不是很小。。。
在我的世界里面，没有坏人只有好人。。。
因为那只是我的世界。。。
当，我的视野慢慢的扩大时。。。
然而， 现在的我才了解到坏人和好人是没有分别的。。。
只有小心，带眼识人。。。
听起来还蛮简单，但是其实呢。。。没那么的容易。。。
加油呗！呵！呵！

how??

aiyo....nw im @ office... but i dun know how to do my work... i really don't know how to do...haiz....how?????

life vs parking space

some time around end of May i drive my dad to tabuan jaya...i believe that all kuching people will know that Tabuan Jaya = No parking space...hahahahaha...ya no doubt as i say when i reached there no parking space for me to park at all...so what to do i just park a side and waiting for my dad...

i am alone inside the car and thinking that if there's people come out i can park in the space...so i wait and wait and wait...there are so many chances for me to park in but others car keep coming and they didn't even queue up and wait 4me to move my car to the parking space....THEY CUT MY QUEUE... haiz.... y kuching people like that one so disappointed with them although me myself is kuching kia oso but i won't be like that....is true guys please believe me i cross my heart and swear it to you....hiak hiak hiak....

ok the main thing is when i trying to move my car to park in the space and the others keep cut my queue to move in those space that i wanna go in suddenly things came out from my mind....our life... in our life we have a lot of chances to choose to make choices what ever we want to...but if we missed the chances will it be another good 1 after that??? i maybe missed up those parking space and some1 get it in...but if i missed up some chances that pretty good enough for my future...or even missed some1 which is very important in my life will i get a better 1 in the future???? i don't know...even this question keep appearing in my mind during that night but i dun have the exact answer....what i told myself is if there have any good chances for me i won't give it up cause i am the one holding my future in my hands... i am the one making the decision for my future...so every chances that i had meet i won't give it up unless there's better chances infront waiting for me....

p/s i did showing signal for their attention lol ..... :x

Misunderstanding....

Well is only a misunderstanding between u & i... hahahaha...sorry larh who ask u din tell properly who's the 1 asking you out...chech tell early larh den i won't angry wif u hahahahahaha.... sorry larh fren....

i was thinking am i really make a correct decision?? i am wondering should i juz end up of my working life in here??? why should we had so high educated?? why people not educated just like they will being look down by others people?? this world really cruel...but how??? we still need to survive if not working how we going to survive...still wanna hands out and ask money from parents???

sometime i will just think...why last time i don't me a chinese physician doctor???why i so stupid??? didn't think it at a proper way...at least being a professional is better than now really don't have any idea what type of job i am really looking for...oh can any one out there tell me??? is this the life i really want??? i really don't understand myself what i really want...truely a bit regret for choosing the course that i had taken...but how??? times would not go backward i only can accept the reality now...

i really don't know what actually i want is the main problem..when everytime i go interview they surely will ask what actually you want?? what actually you want to do as a marketer??? adminstrative??? what you know about those post responsibility??? ya i also know...but it's really hard for me myself to think what really i want...everyday just like the same...morning wake up working after working go back home, teach tuition on monday and tuesday, then wednesday, thursday, friday, saturday and sunday night...except going out yam cha with friend what else meaningful thing that i can do???? Argh!!! really tired when i just think about it...

i want my life have something interesting....i want my life fufilled with more colours.........................................

HOW DARE U!!!

i dun know what really on her mind...sometime what she think will just like is totally correct...and what she planned is totally good....received her call just now and asking me out she knows that i don't have any transport...and even seldom drive at night...oh gosh!!! she asked me can go and join them now...can drive over there now...i told her im teaching tuition now can't join them if can i just can join them after 9pm...i told her that my parents when to a weeding dinner then she ask me to find a DRIVER to send me over to join them....i told her wait until i find my own DRIVER but NOT SO SOON!!!! u know what else she said...she ask me to ask bee kim send me over after she finish her class...i tell her bee kim don't have class tonight she only have class every friday night...then i heard sharon's voice asking me ask wang tin send me over...my goodness!!!she really a good planner ar plan asking me who should i contact and just wanna them send me over to meet them... my god!! where got people like that ???? teaching me using my friend??? for me friends are not like this...hey if u gt heart b4 u go out to meet others sure u may call me and ask me wanna follow u or not right???not at there planning for me how to USE my friend send me over!!!! ArgH!!!! i m not angry for because u didn't ask me out for the earlier...i angry is because u asked me to USED my dearest friends....HOW DARE U!!!!

R.I.P

meet ning on9 juz nw...we all chat a while wif her...heard tat her ah pek involve in an accident in front of her house afta sending her back...d motobike rider admit in d hospital heard tat his leg broke...hmm...according ning she said tat is d bike rider fault...d bike rider a bit drunk @ tat moment & dun haf any driving lessen as well... god... if this is true...plz larh dun drive if dun haf lessen...u can drive @ ur house area thee but not out of d main road marh...ppl life oso important not urs only nia hor...nw gud liaw larh c...knock down ppl car n nw get admit in d hospital song liaw lerh...

nowadays dun noe how d ppl drive...so many accident occur...my god...d most shock & horrible accident both happened at the batu kawa road there...how cum??? is it bcoz of ppl nw driving like siaw lang or????is juz their fate...their life being wrote by sum one up there...they only can alive for N years...even d baby inside d mother's tummy...still not d time gave birth...dun have the chance come over to this beautiful world??? who's the one we should blame???mother herself???? is a one way road y she 1na cut d queue??y she dun wanna juz drive slow to protect her 3 little children and her dearest mom???who should blame???d lorry driver???drive too fast...or maybe this all are really fate...a fate of their living life won't be so long...

whish who ever involving in the accident... Rest In Peace...u might don't know who i am...but never mind... RIP....

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2day while me & ys (my msn-ing fren) go to shopping afta d job fair @ taman kereta api...we stop shopping around 2 sumthing and going for our lunch @ secret recipe (new franchise @ kuching hehehehe) we chat a bit there... den she suddenly told me tat her ah pek saw Brandon in sinchew daily news is about d astro singing competition...she ask me whether gt read d news or not i said i din...

so when i came back home...afta had my dina wif my family...i searching for the singchew web page...i found it n read d news....

成功晉級首場選拔賽的20位參賽者賴健德、鄭麗潔、陳永輝、朱豪仁、李雪雯、陳曉燕、張凱文、葉江興、譚芷韻、李政發、吳騫宜、王翎蓓、傅健穎、萬里瑩、 俞訓成、鄭冰來、張世華、朱雪怡、盧俊游及曾潔鈺，共分成5組以4人一組的合唱形式參賽爭取出線機會，其中2組分數最低的8位參賽者，將再接受自選歌曲自 救的最後挑戰，二度闖進選拔賽的萬里瑩、曾潔鈺、張世華及李雪雯最終闖關失敗，提早止步於首輪選拔賽，無緣晉級次圈。

so as a result he fail...he din get into d final 16...but @ least he edi try his best & he can go into d 20th final is edi gud enuf liaw...

d guy wearing stripe line wif the colour orange & yellow... he's our dearest fren...

張世華闖關失敗，讓賽前說“要唱歌給天上的媽媽聽”的他，情緒失控痛哭。(from sinchew daily news)

well... brandon...we all will support u... u r d best among us...u edi haf a gud try...& done a gud job...sure ur mom will saw everything u done for her in heaven & luv d mother's day present (which money can't buy) tat u gav to her...

2nd day....

well 2day is my 2nd day in office...haiz juz like yesterday but i think 2day is beta den yesterday larh...kekekeke...wrote a letter...chatting on9 for whole day...hahahahaha...makan gaji buta once i din get my own pc (sounds like colling myself kekekeke)...colleagues dem quite ok for d moment larh but dun noe how's their actual kuan hahahaha...u noe larh ppl's kuan will juz cum out afta 1 or 2 months normally 1st few days we won't noe 1...hahahaha...juz like me...kekeke...but i think i won;t b too close wif those sales man lol if not lata being bully by dem...

selin (my another colleague) 1st day noieng her asking me about my salary...my god...dun she noes tat comparing salary is d kind of very very very sensitive issue...ok find may she;s tat straight forward person...she told me tat muz bcareful wif peter lim 1 of our salesman y??? i asked her...she juz said u c ur self lol den u will noe...god...i oso noe marh if like tat wat for u tell me lerh...swt =_=||| according her peter lim is a chi ko bt not that chi ko... wat does she mea hor.. haiya...dun k so much liaw...bo chap shu...tis d way to protect myself...hehehehe....

first day...

finally d day has came... wow...is my 1st day in d new office... 1st Om** sdn bhd dun noe whether u guys heard it o not we r selling d electronic materials for the A**** brand hahahahaha....

ok my 1st day at there... quit boring n dun noe wat i should do... being suku kia for whole day seat at there watching d clock move slowly slowly tik tok tik tok tik tok... a gal weena seat bside me who will hand over all her things to (coz she's more interesting in account so they recruit me to take over her current job) briefing me my job responsibility wat i haf to do n how i haf to do it...all is in a excel format...nw ... not is today i juz noe tat O...excel very useful ya hahaha... but it's really very complicated lol...

haiz...haiz...haiz... i still dun noe whether i had make a correct decision o not.... SWT =_=|||

bless me....

Happyness??? sadNess???

happy is bcoz going to change new enviroment 2molo??? sadness is bcoz leaving B&T?? dun noe... really dun noe.... i oso dun noe how 2 handle d cuming day... d 1st day working for 2molo...meeting new faces, new places can i make it wor??? hahaha.... hope tat i really can lol kekekeke...

nervous... ya very nervous... lalalalalala

%&*@!#!

tis morning when mom sending me to work...afta i arrived @ my office there and 1na get out of d car sumting so weird in my mind juz feel like tat mom will involve in an accident...is a very weird feeling i noe...i actually 1na ask her drive safely b4 i left...but scare she said me like ah ma so loh soh so i din juz say bye to her den go to work liaw...

who noes, around 9 sumthing i think afta she sending my aunty back home n she 1na go to open shop she get involve in an accident near my office...oh god! is my colleague told me coz she saw it...

d bull shit thing is...is not my mom fault, she is in d straight main road, n tat f***ing gal is in d other line which haf 2 wait o c until no car she baru can juz turn to right...but she din!!! hit my mon's car...following my mom to shop n juz like so kia su speak loudly infront of my mom, trying to get sum1 cum over to my dad's shop again...who noes no1 willing to cume!! gud!!!

is her fault she dare to took my dad's RM100 walao er!!! tis gal not admit her fault 1na get ppl money again...my mom oso ar when my dad asking whether who's fault it is she juz keep quiet blur blur there...

tis gal really a sucker!!! cheater!!! bull her shit!!! dun let me c u once!!! u will noe wat i will do!!! u may try it up!!!!

waiting for d day come...

ya...im waiting for my new adventure's day come...dun noe how to describe my feelings nw...i really hope tat i had make a correct decision...

bcoz for me a new adventure is juz like a new life for me...is a new start for me...i really hope tat everything is in a gud way...dun make me disappointed....

plz dun make me feel like being use by u...

i realy treat u as fren...although we noeing each other not such long...but everytime whenever u asked me 2help u i owez willing to help...but sumtime when i seat @ there i'll juz think tat y u owez try to use me...i ever think tat mayb i juz a bit sensitive person n think too much...but nw... i really can confirm...

whenever u col me...u r pleasing me doing sumthing for u...afta tat there's no sound from u... y?? y u should or u muz do like tat to me??can ya pls respect me although i juz a little character in ur life....

good luck my fren...

we received a spread from maggie...he told us tat brandon joining the Astro singing competition and successfully bcum d 20s' competitor... we are all happy wif him coz he really gud in singing...kekeke....

i tried to col him and planned to kacau him on d phone...but too bad he noe im d on d other line...HMpH!!he bcame clever liaw coz last time i used to kacau him wif tis idea but he so stupid he dunnoe is me @ all ahahaha....

tis morning...we all received a msg from him.....

Good Morning. Sorry late to reply u guys cuz last night i sleep early to et more energy for today, don't worry i'll try my best to perform the best i can. Really thanks for the support. Love u guys my dear fren

when i was concentrating doing my work in office suddenly received his msg... shock & happy bcoz we dun noe tat he'll reply us wif such a touching msg... hey man good luck for ur today competition...hope u can get in one of the 16.... if fail oso nvm larh coz u haf try ur best edi....

BORING

boring.... really really boring...dun noe y boring until like tis...nothing to do on9 chat wif my msn-ging fren ---->>> ys she oso bore...haiz...life life life...really dun haf special thing to do liaw hia...arGRH!!!!!

...warm...touching...

还有就是一个觉得该为一直陪伴我度过伤心日子的朋友而掉的泪

i copied tis from SH's blog...3 weeks...when i realised is edi 3 weeks liaw n i read her juz posted blog saw tis sentence...sounds like she's mentioned about me...YeRrr... hahahaha... my 1st response is shock, touching den happy...kekeke...@ least she noe there's still haf fren care about her...all d best to ya...good luck man...

how hor... i oso dun noe...

ys told me tat there will b sum1 following us to KL...aiks... how can it b...really a bit disappointed lol...is not we dun 1na let d sum1 follow...is tat we not really noe d sum1 and mayb there would b sumthing tat not happy de thing incur btween us...dun noe i hav tis feeling when i noe tat there's sum1 following us there...my 6th sense keep telling me...

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yesterday while chatting wif sh...we suddenly discuss sumthing about fren...i tease her tat every time there's sumthing happened to her den she will look for fren...but b4 sumthing happening she won't showing up herself in between us unless there's special occasion...tis not d 1st time i tease her like tis n she oso noe tat she hav tis bad habit...i still remember tat she ever wrote a blog tat about best fren & gal or boy fren r important too...but in d article when we read through u will noe tat she's more care about her boy fren den her best fren...

well...d pass is d passed...i hope she really understand tat d important of frens...hope she really understand wat frens mean...

afta she break up wif her ex...we did spend a lot of time 2gether...tis is bcoz she's too free n dun noe where to go so she look for me look for others fren...i'm happy tat she cum n look for me bringing me out clubbing, sing K, find me haf lunch 2gether n so on n so on...my sis asked me y nw she owez came over to look for me?? my parents asked me y she came and going out wif me so often...i juz silent for a while...i no nid to tell they all noe wat had happened to her break up wif her bf again...

hmm...sumtime i feel very very funny, coz last time when she break up wif her 2nd ex she came over to find me...me and wt consult her support her...but when she start pak tor wif her new bf her bad habits came back to find her again...disappear herself,even we sms her we haf to wait untill d next day baru will reply us...she neva reserve d day we ask her out 1st...i oso dun noe y???frens...she start again we owez said...n me n wt ever said tat next time if she break up wif tis guy we won't do anything we won't accompany her...but when tis happened i'm d 1st she col...im d 1st she came and look for me...oh god...i realy can;t juz ignore her like tat coz she's my pal...

tis time she din promise us anything...we oso din't ask her to promise tat she won't repeat again wat she had done to us...but sumtime i will think tat she's d 1 give up d relationships btween frens now she 1na find back d relationship with d others fren through me...how im going to do??wat supposedly i haf to do?? i really dun noe how...if i dun 1na help her find back d passed relationship btween frens am i d 1 so small gas?? or am i d one so "xiao xin yan"...i dun 1na b d bad character tis is not me...but she's herself give up frens 1st now... how??? dun noe...

i still remember she ever told me tat fren few edi enuf no nid to haf so much frens coz no use...nw...wat she wan??

i not blogging tis to criticism her...but is juz my own feeling...i noe there's devil inside my heart...im bad...yes i m...

holidayzzZzzz

YeaPp... there's public holiday for 1st & 2nd of May... wow.. at 1st we were planning to play MAHJONG @ d duck's house...but when we 1na start off going to his house suddenly receive a col from BK she said tat her shop close early and can go damai for 1/2 day trip...



c... d sky so so blue n d whether so so hot... bcoz of lagoon is closed for renovate so permai, damai & santubong fully booked by kuching ppl... (since when d kuching ppl so kia su???)

we passed by d damai d guide there not allow outsider to go in except d1 edi book a room too bad...so we change our destination to permai...hehe...my god...permai there really people mountain people sea ar... nowadays kuching people really kia su lerh...all d beach full of people...

hehe... well tis is me acting cute there... c @ d back there got 1 sexy lady trying to get into my pic... sienz...

2 pretty sweet young lady(BK and me)... hahaha....

We haf a gud time there...hehe....

............. is my stupid idea....... :P

i can b a gud photographer i think... not bad hor....

wOw..... y im dark in d middle....

action action... hahaha....

thinking sumthing...

we go to "yei yuan" eat dina around 6 sumthing...we had our seafood dina there... is a very enjoyable n fun trip...